My Window Wipers Broke!

What a funny title right!

One must know the so-called 'lesson of a downpour.' A man, caught in a sudden rain en route, dashes along the road not to get wet or drenched. Once one takes it for granted that in rain he naturally gets wet, he can be in a tranquil frame of mind even when soaked to the skin. This lesson applies to everything. - Yamamoto Tsunetomo

One day i'm getting up for work. It's about 6:00 am. I was so stressed out about everything that was going on in my life. A major break up. Family issues and work confusion. I had responsibility at church and i was just not ready for the day i was about to have. I remember thinking to pray and then a thought came to my mind. "Why pray when God see's all this already, he doesn't care about any of this". That made me cry until about 7:15 am.

I sobbed getting dressed putting one arm in my shirt. Frustrated I screamed "This stupid shirt doesn't fit". This turned into me being completely irritated at gaining weight and not being able to fit my clothes. I didn't feel like getting dressed to look cute I was just over it. So I slipped on a dress and put some random shoes on.

I walk outside to go to my car and it's raining.

OH GOODIE! Now it's raining so you know I am no more pissed then i was before. I get in my car and drive off in silence. It began to pour down on I-695. AND BOOM THE WINDOW WIPER BREAKS !

Oh, if this day couldn't get any worse. I called my mother crying as i pulled over at a dunkin donuts. I looked at the wiper and tried to put in on while i'm getting soaking wet outside. I found a way to secure it for the time being then I get back into the car.

ARE YOU SERIOUS! THE GAS LIGHT COMES ON.

Here's the plot twist.

Instead of going off even more then I was. I fought that voice in my head that said it was unnecessary to pray earlier in the morning and this was my prayer.

" Lord, this has been a crazy week. I don't really feel like iv'e done anything to deserve it either. I've done nothing but pray for your people. I've done everything you told me to do. I can't imagine living without your presence in my life and i feel like you have abandoned me. I am on the side of the road sobbing because not only do I have no money for gas or lunch today. My window wipers are broke. And i have to go in this office today and pretend that i'm just this pillar of faith?! How? And this really doesn't make sense i don't see how this is a necessary part of my life. I don't see why i need to go through this to encourage others or to be inspiring. I don't want to do this. PLEASE help me, (irritated) Amen"

Almost minutes later I started driving again and the wiper broke again. So i put my hand out the window and move the wiper in a up-and down motion to do it myself. I was driving about 5 miles per hour.

Then then rain slows down. . . . FINALLY !!

I drive closer to my job and park in my usual spot. I take a deep breath and walk in.

So look, this wasn't supposed to be a happy ending story just a real one. One about a women and human. Who had a bad day. And though the enemy tried to shut me out from pulling on God. I DID IT ANYWAY. It was as if i had looked the enemy in his eye and said i'm not afraid of you leave me alone. I demand to talk to my father. Some days will be so exhausting and draining that you don't want to pretend that it's okay. You want to huff and puff and you want those nagging thoughts to stop. It's almost like people become the nagging record player that you already have in your own head saying all things your already saying to yourself.

"It will get better"

"Don't quit"

"Trust God"

"Better days are coming"

"Don't let people change who you are"

"Don't let people see you down"

And your in your head like I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is just your sign today that God gets it. He does see the pain and he may not take it away right now. He may not fix the car. He may not bring the child home. He may only give you enough to make it. He most definitely can take the rain go away and give you sun with all of the same burdens. Just take your time and don't let the enemy steal your time of prayer. PRAY ANYWAY!

DO YOU HEAR ME! PRAY ANYWAY! I DON'T CARE IF OTHER PEOPLE ARE LOOKING AT YOU. THEY SEE YOUR CIRCUMSTANCE AND THEY ARE GOING TO WONDER WHY YOU STILL PRAY. AND SOME MAY EVEN DOUBT THAT YOU ARE BECAUSE YOU LOOK DOWN. BUT DON'T YOU PAY ATTENTION TO IT! JUST KEEP PRAYING AND PROMOTION FOR YOU AND YOUR LIFE IS COMING SOON! REAL SOON!

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