“Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated.” – Lamartine
Have you ever wondered what would happen if you went missing?
On the news every week we are hearing about people who go missing from the youngest to the oldest of age. Some are runaway's and many are kidnapped or terribly hurt. There's a type of anguish that goes through the body when we find out that people can just disappear. They are completely normal and with us one day and then POOF . . . They are nowhere to be found. I can imagine that many parents, siblings, friends and even co-works begin to feel a sense of uncertainty when one goes missing. Many questions go through there heads like; When was the last time that I seen him/her? Did I ever see her with a new friend? Could I have done something to prevent this? or OMG! I knew I was supposed to call him/her!
So many thoughts and so many questions rush through the brain going seconds at a time. They are overwhelmed with fear and they just want to know if they are alright.
Well, I wonder if you've noticed those who go missing and they have never actually left the room. They aren't on the news and they aren't running away. They are in the living room, at the birthday party, with the kids. But, they are missing.
A mentor of mine one day asked me. Morgan, what would happen if you went missing? What would the world miss out on?
My first thoughts were why is this such a deep question and why don't I understand how to answer it?
So I continued on and on with what if's in my head. Until finally I produced a answer. I said "If I went missing the world would miss out on a women who gives voice to the young people and speaks on the hurt that's unspeakable" He said wow.
He followed with "well if that's the case then imagine how God feels when you abort your mission/purpose and you go missing? You cannot do that which you were called into the world to do. You aren't giving voice to the young people and you are not allowing the hurt to feel heard."
I began to weep at his remarks because I felt something that I had never felt. Not in a conference, not in a Sunday morning service not even in one on one prayer. I felt like I was needed. I was needed in the world. I felt like my presence meant something.
And he didn't really say much to me after that he let me think.
So I thought, and I thought very hard about my life.
I have gone missing over and over again. When I feel like life is getting rough I don't want to fight I want to throw the towel in. I want to watch from the bleaches I don't want to play on the court.
I mean seriously play on the court were people are being hit hard. They are scoring and then some are losing. Some knocked to the very ground and many have serious injuries. I think why not just take the luxury of sitting way up here in the bleachers letting them play and me just along the side. Especially because I don't believe people are actually watching me play the game or even that they MISS me playing.
No, in that moment I am soaking. Soaking in the fact that life isn't going the way I feel it should or that it's not progressing like I want it to. When your up there for a while you realize that even the ones who plan their life and live it according the rules and parameters they set. They have there bleacher days like me too. When we are up there together they are saying I just want a break. I'm usually up there saying why? Your perfect at this games plus everybody love you down there?
You see other people notice when you go missing. They know when your light has dimmed. They know when your on the bleachers and no longer playing in life. You somehow don't feel like you make a difference because YOU CAN'T SEE YOU. But, if you ask yourself the question what happens when I go missing I guarantee you find that just like those on the news calling for their children,siblings, and friends.
God is calling you. He's calling us.
He want's us to get from the bleachers and play in the Game called life. He wants us to give up being right. And just play.
I can see him calling us from near and afar. Come from your places of hiding. Come home. We miss you and we miss your smile. Your needed in the Game. And really the game of cannot go on with out you.
So, let's come from being the missing child to the child who's been found.
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